Thursday, April 30, 2026

the gift of gab

 I wish there was a phrase for gossiping really good. Like how persuasive confident speakers have the "gift of gab". that definition would be soo much more cunt if it meant people who can cogently spill tea. anyways someone commented on my recent post that I should do a storytime on the tragic (some) events I went through and it had me thinkinggg...


and then quickly gathered myself. one thing about me? I can tell a gooood fucking story and I can gossip really well. in fact my bestie Juan used to always tell me back in school that I need to start a YouTube channel (coming soon) (well I already have one with 2 vids, just need to post again 😀) and make story times, he knew people would eat them up. as kinda compelling as it sounds, I did make a promise to myself that I would not come out and speak of any of my fall outs with people on the internet. I would probably speak of feelings or this and that but not actual detailed events, as I don't necessarily see it as beneficial and I believe these events can be left in my inner community. I still respect these people to an extent too so exposing their business just doesn't sound worth it. 


anyways that just had me thinking because ask me like 3+ years ago I would've been showing y'all I got the gift of gab (my definition 💋). xD basically, i'll speak on situations to an extent so y'all can still ask me anything... but will I answer all? *dun dun dunnn* 

k byeee muah 

Tuesday, April 7, 2026

surprise bitch… i bet you thought you’d seen the last of me

well well well…..

Guys I’ve been MIA literally in all my life omg not just my blog. So much has happened since last November which is my most recent blog post I have no idea where to start. I don’t even know if i WANNA start. Here are my stats right now, ask questions if you have any:
-homoerotic female friendship breakup
-toxic humiliationship breakup #wlw
-traveled to Brazil, New York, and Arizona #ayyyy
-lost myself(???)
-found myself 
-lost myself again ??
-locked in.

BASICALLY long story put incredibly short. 
Iets just say all of these moments simply changed me and also saved me. 
You know… i want to, and much rather be, that person that goes through these transformative events and instead of abandoning myself and my crafts it only pulls me more closer to them so i can work on them. 
I ask myself: how come when I’m losing my sh*t, to cope i stride even further away from myself. This is that double edge sword right, that only causes me to then do double the work when im finally ready to lock in… is it just me? 

umm.. so it was a crush actually

​really quick blog entry. guess who just realized they had an unrequited crush on their ex bestie.. ME! It’s me! now THIS is something i wou...